I know what it means to experience a family member die. It is the hardest part of life when someone you love dies and you don’t know why or how.

One day my cousin was fine, happy, laughing, wanting all the attention then that is just gone. She was the most beautiful baby I have ever seen even though I didn’t get to see her grow up. One day she would of found love, would have lived a happy life and just grew up.

My baby cousin dies on February 15th 2013 it was the most tragic part of my life, because it was 5 days after my birthday. The same day, about 10-15 years ago another baby cousin dies, she was playing in a foot deep pond she slipped and drowned. I never got to meet her but I don’t know what she would be like, but I hopped she would be nice, happy and loving.

Losing a family member is the worst thing that has happened to me One day you are playing with them then the next day you don’t see them. But I believe that my baby cousins are in a better place.

What happened to my baby cousin Nicole was when my aunt and uncle put her to bed she was asleep and she wasn’t crying so they just thought she was having a good sleep, but the next morning when they checked on her she wasn’t breathing. The funeral was a couple days later, it was the most beautiful and most saddest day of my life. I have never seen so many people in one place it was so special for all of them to be there just for a special part of our lives. I got to carry my baby cousin to her grave. It was the first I have ever seen my dad cry. We said our prayers they lowered her into the ground I couldn’t leave but my parents made me. I need to go back and visit her but she visits me every day I feel her looking down at me.

A few years later my aunt and uncle had a baby girl and she is beautiful. I get to see her grow up and I’m so grateful to be the best cousin I can be.

This story was the hardest thing for me to wright. i couldn’t stop crying. I am going to love and care for my new baby cousin.